... if I make an emergency appointment tomorrow to talk about my level of anxiety? I am already signed off until November and am seeing a counsellor and a psychiatrist. I saw the counsellor last week for the first time - an assessment, which isn't finished. She is on holiday this week so I won't see her until a week tomorrow. . The psychiatrist I had to see because of the possiblity of increasing or changing my medication - I saw him for the first time last week too. He didn't change the medication for various reasons - mainly because I am on the highest recommended dose. I don't see him again until December. I can't rememebr a lot about the appointment or what his conclusions were at the end, just that the anxiety I am experiencing is the overall problem more than the depression I am being treated for. My immediate problrm is that I am experiencing a heightened level of anxiety that I am struggling to control. Many things have that have happened to me over the last couple of days are worrying me but today has finished me off. I went for a long walk this afternoon- something I do most days - and within about ten minutes couldn't stop shaking and crying. I carried on walking and hoped that no one would see me. I just couldn't control it. My walk lasted for just over an hour and I was still feeling really shaken by the end of it. I have calmed down considerably since getting home but for days I have had this increasing feeling that I am going to scream and do something stupid or dangerous. I'm not talking about suicide - more along the lines of getting so ****** that I'm oblivious to everythung and can stop thinking. I have been drinking a lot but made a pact with myself on my walk that I am going to cut out alcohol completely. I have also convinced myself that if I drink alcohol or eat anything fattening or unhealthy, something bad will happen. If I think it will happen to me I don't worry, but if I convince myself that something will happen to a member of my family, it's enough to stop me from doing it. I reaslise how stupid this all sounds and I know I need help, but there';s really nothing more my GP can do. Yet I feel as if I need to go and talk about it. What do others think? Sorry to waffle on.