I retrained as a teacher 3 years ago and am in my late 30s. I found it hard when I first started and nearly gave up but now love it and can't imagine any other job I would like to do. Just before the summer I thought how lucky I was; I have 3 young children, a great husband and a job I love. The second to last day of term I found out my husband had leukaemia. We are struggling to come to terms with this diagnosis and are very up and down at present. Work now seems very unimportant. I am sitting here trying to plan and instead doing everything but. I want to teach well and continue my career but at the same time I just think 'so what'. I don't even know why I'm posting - I'm so confused. Any words of advice?