Hi all I hope I do this correctly,I have been viewing this forum for quite a while and finally plucked up the courage to share my story and hopefully begin to work through my situation. It's a familiar tale, so it would seem, of a longstanding UPS3 teacher finding themselves facing capability. Earlier this year I was in the position of being faced with capability, it came completely out of the blue, no previous history of anything, good PM record etc etc. Without giving too much away a situation arose after a procedural query by the exam board. According to one supportive member of SLT, I had no case to answer, the HT saw it differently and stated that it was evidence of gross misconduct and I could be instantly dismissed. Obviously at this stage I was distraught, upset, anxious and very worried. I was pressurized by several other members of SLT to offer my resignation before 'anything more serious started' and was told in no uncertain terms that if I entered capability 'you will not succeed'. With that in my mind and the common worries of money,family and continuing career, I made an offer, at the recommendation of my union rep, which was rejected and ultimately I was advised to accept a counter offer by the HT which was less favourable. I found another job - but I don't like it, I dread going to school,I don't like my classes and I miss dreadfully what I had. Every day, every lesson, every time something goes wrong it seems further conformation that I am no good anymore despite the fact that my teaching has never been called in to question. My family to a certain extent, feel I should get over it - I have another job, financially we are slightly less well off, but its nothing compared to being out of work. To make matters worse the new school is quite 'volatile', I am on a fixed term contract but it is obvious from decisions that have been taken that there is no future for me at the school as I will be surplus to requirements. Just writing this makes me feel guilty, that I should just get on with things. I took no time off during any of this and whilst I'm pleased in a way that my current post will end and I won't feel I have to stay just because it is a job, I am also filled with anxiety and dread at being potentially unemployed again. I was very lucky to get the post I have, there was nothing else last year in this area and I am expensive if I want any sort of pay portability. I feel that I am responsible for losing my job and that if this means we have to cut back then I will be ultimately to blame. I'm counting the days until the holidays and I am hoping the 2 weeks off might help me recharge for the next term. Sorry for the long post, and if you've made it reading this far then thank you.