I recently got offered a TA position in a secondary just before being laid off my previous job. My line manager from my old job which was an an office made negative comments on my reference such as "doesn't respond well to management" and "struggles with following instructions". These seem to be spiteful comments as I was not once given any warnings or disciplinary for any of this. Now, I am unemployed with nothing lined up, and with references like that, how am I going to find work again? I am at the end of my tether, and extremely anxious for the future. I am in a cycle of getting a job, working for a few months then being let go/forced to quit. It's got to the point where I regret going to university as I have not been able to find a decent job since then. At some point, I may have to take my own life, because I know I do not have a bright future ahead of me. The depression is too much, and even when I am in work, I am unhappy. My partner wants to get married and have children, and I have told her I cannot provide her with either of this. There will almost certainly come the day when she will say enough is enough and she will realise she's wasting her time.