This is just a vent. I have worked so hard at my career. I was finally making progress, then my daughter was diagnosed with leukaemia. A year into treatment and I am back in work, but have had to have many unpaid days to look after her/take her to appointments. She should be living more 'normally' now, but she has been very ill and immune-suppressed by her dose of chemo so they have just dropped her to 75% to see if she will cope better with that. I don't know how I feel about the 75%. Surely it is 100% for a reason? Before Easter she was hospitalised with pneumonia. Whilst we were there, another girl we knew died of her illness. Then a boy we knew, then another boy, then another was given 6 months. All around me children are relapsing. I am so worried about her. And all the time, trying to get in, trying to do my job. I'm main earner; we cannot afford to pay the bills on my husband's salary. My pay has been seriously hit by time off. Then, today, a letter to meet the head about my attendance. This is aside from routine HR procedure. I am worried, stressed, anxious. I am frightened I will go in and have some kind of meltdown. I'm waiting to hear back from union. I cannot believe just 18 months ago they regarded me as a conscientious employee who they wanted to keep when I tried to apply elsewhere. And I still wonder, when exactly do I get some good luck for a change?