Ii am a very new pgce student and am on the third week of my placement. I have never taught before formally and have had experience in reception and year 1. I am on placement in year 4 on a primary PGCE. I have had very limited support or guidance on what is supposed to be guided placement. On my first assessment it went wrong and i must admit that i was in the dark on my teaching planning and had virtually no help and was thrown in literally at the deep end. I lost sleep and could not eat and this added to the stress i was under. After this first assessment i was given an F which really upset me but i was determined to try and get to grips with the planning. I took on board all feedback and I was told that my UT would be coming again the following week. On Monday last I was told that the head was concerned about me teaching the class, (the head, by the way has never spoken to me or met me only getting the information via my AT and UT whom i have the impression do not like me. My AT has never worked with a student before. So they would be returning on the Friday of the same week to re assess a lesson. Then i was told that a senior pgce lecturer would also be attending as a joint observation. This put added pressure to the stress load i was carrying and by Friday i felt i was up against the firing squad ! I was so nervous i admit i messed up the lesson making fundamental errors. I was brought into the staff room to serious faces from the two university tutors. They suggested that i re do the GPP in what would of been the FPP. At that time i was speechless and just listened to their criticism. I have had time over the weekend to reflect and realise my mistakes culminating in my emailing my UT to explain my actions. I have a deep passion to become a teacher and feel that i have had limited support and no encouragement whatsoever. I have been in the dark so to speak trying to fumble through. I am disappointed that my UT is totally unappoachable and after writing this email detailing everything she has sent a very blunt email saying she will see me tomorrow and clarify a few things ! That was it...... very ominous indeed and now i am literally terrified of what she will say tomorrow. I dont know where to turn for help. I thought the UT was there to assist me, I thought the AT was there to guide me, I have had non of this. The head has an impression of me only by what the AT has told her and my UT. If tomorrow, the worst scenario happens my question is what can i personally do about it. Do you think I should go to the head of pgce, the course director to discuss what has happened. I never in a million years envisaged this outcome so early into my course. Surely they should be there to help a new student after all how can a total novice suddenly be able to teach a flawless lesson after only a matter of weeks. Everyone deserves a second chance ????