I am getting more and more caught up in thoughts about my weight and more and more fed up with it. I am not overweight, 5'6 and around 9.5 stone, size 8-10. I know that there will be people on here who will not be happy with me complaining about this, can they please just not post. Years ago I was alot bigger,I then got back down to 9st 10, then up again to nearly 11. In the past two years I have gone from 10st 5 to 9 stone and then back up to around what I am now. I have a pact with friends to lose a bit for our holiday, and my goal is half a stone. I am just not losing any! I have upped my exercise (in the past 4 days I have done 1.5hrs cycling, 3 x 1hr gym classes and a big 45 min swim) and it makes no difference. If anything I get heavier. I am on food focus and my average calorie intake this week is above my target to lose 1.5lbs a week but should have been enough to lose 1lb. My main issue is food, I really struggle to maintain a healthy diet because I love bad food eg takeaway. The problem is because I am slim I cannot join a slimming club to deal with my food obsession and massive appetite, as they consider me to be fine. The longest I have ever managed without a big takeout is 3 weeks, and that was a struggle. I have days where I look in the mirror and think I look ok and then days where I just feel massive and heavy. All of this is compunded by living in a house where my boyfriend's mum and sister (50 and 21) have perfect tiny bodies. There are both 5ft 2 and size 6, I look and feel like an amazon women next to them because I am 4 inches taller and alot wider! They are both always tanned and groomed with expensive products from harvey nicks and neither has a mark on them, whereas I have have horrific stretch marks up and down my legs and bum from my weight gains and losses. Apologies for the long message, and I am fully aware that for people with health issues related to their weight I sound ridiculous but I am worrying because it takes up so much of my thoughts in a day, and get I seem to be able to do nothing about my actual eating habits.