I am going to be blunt here and say that I don't know if I have the strength to finish the training year. I am always tired, constantly anxious, have frequent panic attacks, and spend far too often in a state of crying. My mental condition has deteriorated so severely during the past few months, and with the increasing workload and being told I will soon be a "cause for concern" means it's not going to get any better. I've struggled with depression previously, and recognise all the symptoms of its return. I do not feel I have the emotional support available to talk about these things to my mentor (at either school) and now dread going into school for fear of being constantly told how terrible I am (that's what it feels like, anyhow). However, I am halfway through the training and have put so much of my life into this. I literally have no life outside of work. I still enjoy the actual teaching and interacting with the students element, but it's actually a very small part of being a science teacher in a secondary school. There is also the financial implications, and not having anything to show for all of this work so far. I guess my main question is what support was available to other people in this situation? I don't want to have to leave the course as everyone always says that one day I'll make an excellent teacher, but a job shouldn't cost my life and mental health. I've contacted my ITT provider lead but no reply yet. Apologies for the long post and thank you for your time.