I'm struggling to decide what to do and hope to get some advice. I have got 2 terms with 'may not meet standards' under my belt now which is really disappointing and have been told that in another school I would probably have been fine, I'm in very challenging school. I absolutely hate it there and am desperately trying to get through it but honestly don't know if I cando another 7 weeks feeling exhausted, crying every day and absolutely dreading going in. The problem is that I can't afford to be without a job and although I know I could probably do supply, my confidence is now so low that I'm not sure I'd be any good at that either. All my PGCE training was absolutely fine, no causes for concern at all, and excellent feedback on my observations and everything I did, so it's come as a big shock for me. The other thing that is worrying me is that I have a history of depression and I recognise the symptoms are coming back, but I'm also worried that if I go to my GP I've then got it back on my record again which won't look good when looking for another job. I don't know what to do, can't sleep, even though school's now over for 2 weeks, and can't stop thinking about it, and totally dreading going back. I'm not at all afraid of hard work, and put in the hours and do everything that's asked, it's just that I've lost motivation and enthusiasm and don't feel part of my dept or the school really and don't feel like I'm likely to really do what the school's expecting from me. I trained relatively late on in life because it's something I'd wanted to do for a long, long time, and now it feels like I've made the biggest mistake of my life, and done nothing but cause worry and stress for myself and my family. Not sure it's really worth it now, but finding it difficult to face the fact that maybe I made the wrong decision, and hate the thought of going back into industry. Has anyone else been in this situation, I just feel like a total failure. Should I just resign even though I don't know if I've got the confidence to get another job right now?