Hello everyone, apologies if this isn't the right place for this thread, I wasn't sure where else to put it! So I'm a trainee on a PGCE primary and I'm having doubts. So I have my own horse, had him almost 10 years and he is my absolute world. Due to the intensity of the PGCE, I really only get to see him at weekends. I thought it would only be temporary and worth it. But I've got to admit, I'm not loving placement, like it's okay but it's not a dream come true. I'm also starting to question whether it really is true that a primary teacher is looking at 50/60 hour work weeks - I genuinely thought this was the media scare mongering, but is it true? Because that won't leave me much time for my horse AND if I would like to start a family at some point. To cut a long story short, my horse became very ill over Christmas and has been in the equine hospital for two weeks (sepsis) and needed three surgeries. It is going to be touch and go for a little while still and I don't know if he is going to be alright. Obviously, I haven't done any work and am behind - but I could catch up - if I had the motivation. I feel like I just don't. I can't really explain it too well, maybe someone has been through something similar but I just feel like my priorities/ what I want from life have changed drastically. I no longer am overly concerned about a "proper career" - I want to be around to look after my horse, if he recovers, I want to be around to spend time with him - not just keep paying others to do it for me. It's like it's slammed into me how fragile life is, how things can just happen and there are things much more precious than a career, solid salary etc. I barely see my parents/ siblings and we live together, let alone other family members/ friends. I don't have much of a social life because I'm concerned with having enough sleep so I can get my master's assignments done at weekends. Maybe actually I don't want to do that anymore, maybe I just want to live my life and not be constantly working. I don't know, maybe this is all just too deep and philosophical??? We've had a lot go on recently at home too that could be impacting all this, I was hit by a car and knocked off my bike and we were burgled. I've also overcome a lot in my personal life over the past year recovering from an eating disorder that nearly destroyed me. Perhaps it was all leading to a perspective change? I guess I'm just looking for some advice, is teaching really worth it - do you teachers truly work those insane hours weekly? How is your work/ life balance? Do you have time to enjoy yourselves and look after yourself? Any advice?? I guess anything would be appreciated ! I'm thinking about moving back into early years - that is what my undergraduate is in and I truly love it. Maybe teach reception one day... But looking for more flexible working/ leaving work at work (I don't mind a couple hours a week paperwork at home outside of working hours, in fact I actually enjoy researching and planning activities or doing some professional reading - but surely there has to be a limit?!) I've got some big decisions to make in the next week or so - so thank you so much if you've got this far, I know it's lengthy. But I'd just love some answers or advice from those who are actually teaching! Or some understanding from anyone who has been in a similar situation?? Thanks guys!