I started my NQT year as a Maths Teacher in Septemeber and have hated every single second. After failing my first few observations I have been observed every week since before Christmas and I have only had 2 satisfactory and 2 borderline satisfactory so far. My main problem is behaviour management and I rarely feel like I am truly in charge of my classes, my students have no respect for me and I feel like I have no relationship with them at all. After half term I am having a meeting with the deputy head because all of the extra support I had is being removed and I need to be clear of their expectations of me. They have also suggested I ask my union rep to come in with me which sounds like I am going to be told I am still on course to fail my NQT year and we are going to come up with another action plan but basically there is no hope. The major problem I am having is that I have wanted to be a teacher forever and I feel like such a failure for quitting, but I honestly don't think I can pass because my behaviour management is so ****. I have been told that my lessons are good- AfL/ visuals/ questioning techniques etc. but it is being ruined by my lack of control. I have the potential to be a great teacher but I haven't enjoyed any of this year, I have no desire to continue, and I don't believe I can get sort out my problems- I also doubt I will find a school with well behaving kids where I could try to pass the final term if I wanted to change schools. I made the decision to quit and told my parents, but my dad thinks I'm giving up and its the wrong thing to do and we have had quite a few arguments about it. So now I'm thinking about keeping going, but I don't want to because I'm going to fail- its just to stop him being disappointed. I know no one can tell me what to do, but I just need some advice from someone impartial.