Hello Please bear with me as I am quite tired and therefore probably a lot more sensitive. I feel like I am massively weak at behaviour management. The only praise I seem to get/have gotten in teaching is that my lesson structure/planning/resources are very very good. Marking good too. I am really worried about my future in teaching. My contract at current school changed from perm to temp following comments about my behaviour management in ref from last school. They were super late in handing the reference and seemed super annoyed about my leaving (in fact at least a dozen teachers left with me that year, many who had been there for just a year, which should speak volumes) . I wasn't on any support plan for it or anything but taught French to kids who had to study it but didn't think it was important and to mostly bottom sets. My last obs comments were actually really positive. However, I feel that I will fail the observation at my new school that swings the decision (to make me perm) as I stupidly chose a challenging class to get proper feedback and I have an NQT who they can make perm instead perhaps. I feel like I am in constant competition with them as they are super keen and do everything, creating elaborate displays, being super up for everything and anything and send really long emails to parents. I feel like I am struggling under my higher teaching and marking load, even though I am a few years in (NQT+3). I have two GCSE classes who obviously I prioritise. I have moved cities to be here. I don't think I could handle yet more interviews. I have worked in a new school every year. I just think I should give up now. The kicker is that I feel weak even compared to much newer teachers who are surprised by my honest accounts of struggles with classes. Some teachers experience similar but not many. I just feel like a dunce teacher and I should just give up now but for what? Selling all my resources on TES? Textbook publishing?? Thanks for reading.