Hi - just found this thread....can I join please... I would love a family. I always wanted a big, big family. My gran had 13 kids, I'm one of 7....all my siblings have children, my brother has 6. And I can't have any. I've been told not to try. I could probably get pregnant but not carry the baby to term or if I did manage that, I carry genetic conditions that I am likely to pass on to children. Is it selfish to ask - why me?!All my siblings have had children and I can't. Where is the justice in that. I'm a Christian and know that everything is in God's hands - but I would love Him to tell me why, if I can't have children, has He given me an over-sized maternal instinct. Some days, the pain of knowing I will never have children is physical. I know that some of you reading this will understand that. Some days people, family usually, tell me how great I am to accept my fate and that I am a terrific auntie. Well, I DON'T accept it! Yes I'm a great auntie, but I want to be a mum too! Some days I want to lose my well-known tolerance and just hit the next person who tells me there's more to life than being a mum - or worse, that I'm actually lucky to be childless. I don't have a partner at the moment. And I'm getting older every day....so even a longed for miracle isn't likely.But I still dream...and then I come back to reality and have a quiet sob. Hugs to all on this thread and thanks to OP for giving us a thread where we can drop the false smile and admit how much we hurt.