Hi all, This is the first time I've been on the TES site since it changed, so I hope I post this properly. I started a primary PGDE course 2 weeks ago. All was going well, enjoyed uni and learning again (9 years since I graduated), meeting new people etc. Then last Sunday I had a complete panic at the thought of going into school. I have been working with kids for 8 years in various roles - teaching assistant, nursery practitioner, playworker, amd briefly, teaching. I did the Graduate Teacher Programme in England several years ago, completed it, but left my NQT year after a term due to anxiety/depression problems (these have been prevalent throughout my life and I get support). After panicking on Sunday, I went into school on Monday and had a full blown panic attack. There weren't any kids there, barely any staff (it was early) and the head was very understanding, but unfortunately "fight or flight" took hold and I made my excuses and left. I contacted the uni, telling them I wanted to leave the course and they sent me a form to do so, adding that if I wanted to speak to them in person, I could. So, after several days of beating myself up and feeling like a complete failure, I spoke to the director and depute of the course. Unfortunately, I was looking and feeling a mess, so didn't present myself well. They told me that, as it was more my emotional state than an aspect of the course I was struggling with, there was very little they could do. They said it wasn't their decision to make, but teaching probably wasn't for me, and recommended a visit to the careers service. This is my thrid attempt at teaching and I know that on a good day, I can do it and have been told I can do it very well. The problem is, I have low self-esteem and little self-belief. I know that, ultimately, the decision is mine to make, but I just wondered if any of you had experienced similar problems, and how you dealt with them? Depression and anxiety recur. I wish I didn't have either of them, but I do. I just have to work out the best course of action. Any advice would be gratefully appreciated. Thanks in advance.