I'm going through a tough time in my personal life, caused by choices I made that I felt would improve things in the long run, but have caused a lot of problems in the interim & and I feel I'm really struggling. Work is hectic at the moment, so many people are off I end up with numerous please-takes and due to lack of personnel there's usually no work left. I'm fortunate that the pupils are all lovely where I am but they're getting fed up at missing out on practical lessons and being left what are clearly rushed resources or nothing at all. I go home to an empty flat, & my hands are constantly shaking so much I struggle to type or even hold a cup without spilling it. I've got a doctor's appointment next week and I hope he can help. I already suffer from bipolar - another medical professional has suggested he signs me off but the idea of sitting on my own brooding over things is almost worse than being at work. I'm crying as I type this. I don't know what I hope for as help; I just want to speak to people who understand. I'm so struggling putting on a brave face every day. I know from reading this a lot of people have it a lot worse than me though, so that makes me feel more guilty.