Hello, i'm sorry to have to post this, I posted a long time back, when I suspected I was depressed and went to the doctor. I was diagnosed and put on 20mg of citalopram; this worked after a month and I felt quite good. The best I had felt in a while; genuinely thought i'm fiine, I can take the world on goood things are coming for me I can do this. II went back to my GP and kept this up for about three-four months. I started feeling down again. He put my dosage up to 30mg. I stayed on this for about two months. I never felt very good, marginally better but not amazing. I went back and he put me up to 40mg. This zonked me out, I spent a lot of the christmas break sleeping throughout the day. I struggled to get on with things. A month later, (the other day), I went back to the same doctor and he just would not listen to me. I've been feeling really down over the festive period and i'm finding it hard to face work. I said I think I need to change medication. However, I have an appointment with a psyciatrist that is two months from now. He said he wont change it, because I can wait two months; he gave me two months worth of medication and sent me away. This was an emergency appointment. The day after I couldn't cope and went for a second emergency appointment, I got back to the doctors and saw a different GP. Again, I said I want medication changed. She asked me to give her a week to see what she can do. She phoned me not long after I got home, she had contacted the secretary of the psyciatrist I am to see and my appointment is tomorrow (I saw the doctor two-three days ago). I would appreciate any advice. I feel awful my lifes a mess.