Hi, I'm an NQT that started my first job four weeks ago its a maternity cover for the whole year finishing December. And yes I am struggling and finding the whole experience a shock. And yes I want a big rant and any advice please!!! I did my training in a soft good school and now I am at a school with difficult kids - not the worse by any means but difficult and I am struggling with the behaviour. Its specifically my year 9 class, a year 7 class and a BTEC group who are awful. The BTEC group by the way really need a classroom assisstant with them, but mainly my year 9.I also have no idea how to teach the BTEC. I aksed my mentor for help she observed a lesson and said I was building a good rapport with them but the next two lessons they were awful. I punish some of them and they behave but are resentful of the ones that they feel get away with things. They take ages to settle down if I ask for quiet. Now I can see the good ones getting annoyed as well as the lessons are disruptive. They get work done but it takes them ages. Their head of year it must be said is very good too as is my head of department they drop by during these lessons to check on me. Once they are gone however the kids play up again. I also have a year 11 class who don't and won't do much work at all, their predicted grades are mostly D - F (about four Cs out of 20) and to my mind have given up they just sit there. I am also finding the workload really hard - I knew it would be but I have no life at all. The lesson plans are not good and none of them fill an hours lesson so I am continually trying to find resources. I feel that my teaching has gone way backwards and my lessons are very poor. Other teachers in the school tell me it will get easier and its perfectly normal and are really encouraging and best of all I have a great wife and Mum that are supportive and will not let me quit. I am suffering from a bit of stress and get anxious and have panic attacks. I know it could be much worse reading the forums here and like I said other teachers are supportive and sympathetic but I would just like to know from other NQTs do you feel the same and are you struggling as well, just how normal is this? Am I being a big wuss? Also should I by now have startred my induction programme? What does this involve? Nothing has been done on this front. I guess its not just advice I'm looking for but other peoples experiences and how they felt on starting their career. Right now I'm thinking I'll just get the induction year over with and think about teaching again. Thanks for any comments anyone has!