I don't even know where to start. I think I am either stressed, depressed or both. And it is most definitely reflecting my work. Teaching jobs are few and far between back home so last year I decided to move to a city, the one my boyfriend lives in, to get a job. I ended up fortunate enough to get a job at a school that looks great on paper but is a nightmare in reality. Life just seems to have switched in so many ways since I made the move. My relationship with my boyfriend broke down over religion and we are now only friends and everything is very much on his terms. Trouble is he is my only friend here, I find it so hard to make new meaningful friendships beyond acquaintances. Im still in love with him and know I should just break free from him but I think Id find like just too lonely without him there. Having had bad experiences with roommates in the past I decided to live alone which is most peoples dream. However the quiet and loneliness really gets to me, and all the responsibly is a lot to deal with. My health has also just gone crazy. From mid nov to the start of this month I lost 1 and a half stone without trying. I find myself crying at night and taking mild panic attacks. I can't breathe properly most of the time and I am just always so tired. I have been to the doctor to has gave me treatment for acid reflux ( never even heard of this) but that was it. Work is a nightmare, my dept are so passive aggressive and unpleasant. The school has ridiculous polices and is just generally a stressful nightmare. I am really struggling to cope with life alone in a city starting a teaching career. I wish I could run home but I know there are no jobs there whatsoever and I have signed a lease etc here for a year. However I have nights like tonight, where I just want to get on the first plane home in the morning and leave work and life here behind. Ahh! Has anyone else moved away for work and just not handled it well at all emotionally / with your health ? How did you work through it? Anyone any experiences with acid reflux / breathing problems?