I feel like I'm in urgent need for some advice from fellow teachers. I completed my PGCE successfully last year, started my 1st job and induction year full of enthusiasm and energy. Unfortunately, my confidence as a teacher was quickly undermined by a destructive and bullying mentor, lack of support and a VERY challenging class...so I quit by Christmas when my health was already poor. I did a bit of supply teaching, one of the jobs being a maternity cover position long enough to complete another bit of my NQT year. I was doing well, but it was a free school and work load was MUCH less than what I was used to, plus I loved my colleagues and working environment. In the end they couldn't keep me as the teacher on maternity returned full time, so I had to look for yet another job and wanted a permanent position this time, both for my CV and to finish off the last bit of my induction year. Long story short, I wasn't getting as many offers as expected (lots of competition in the area I guess) and in the end had to go for a school on special measures in a deprived area of the city (so a lot of children with terrible backgrounds/home situations etc.). I felt up for it in the beginning, I had my energy and confidence as a teacher back and I felt like I could really make a change there. Plus they gave me the chance to finish off my induction year (which is only going to be one more term) and paid me over the summer. Now I'm only in my second week and feel like I'm thrown back to last year - I simply cannot cope. The workload I'm facing is simply overwhelming. There is a new head, new policies and just so so many expectations. I have that feeling again that I am not enjoying my job, I do enjoy the actual teaching bit, but not all the things around it. I love the children, but I feel like my behaviour management still doesn't come naturally. I simply feel like I am not and I cannot be a good teacher. I value my private life and hobbies, and I feel like as soon as school starts again after the holidays none of this is existent any more. My constantly high stress level is affecting my relationship, it already has last year and is repeating now. I'm trying to stay organize and work hard, but I'm simply worn out at 6pm every night. I'm even dreading weekends because there is more things to do! I sometimes honestly wish I had a 9-5 office job and a proper work-life balance. I KNOW that all these things are normal and you'll have to do them if you want to be a teacher, but I don't know if I can and do want to do it, if I want to make that huge amount of effort and be constantly tired, stressed to a level it's effecting my health and relationship and not enjoying my job. On the other hand, I DO enjoy teaching, being with the children and all that, so I don't see any alternatives either. I was actually signed off with stress - in my first week. I'm now trying to either get back on track by using the time to make a plan how to cope better, or decide to quit. Has anyone ever been in a similar situation? I feel weak, confused and with a bad conscience because I usually even go to work when I feel really poorly. Any advice would be hugely appreciated.