I left my first teaching job this year, in a school that I loved, so that I could relocate and be with my boyfriend. I was so excited to not be long-distance anymore (my friends and family live here too) but having now started my new job I feel completely deflated. It’s the most disorganised school I could imagine, timetables still aren’t finalised and we haven’t had a single English lesson yet because the highers up are still sorting out a scheme and we aren’t allowed to do anything off-scheme. I’m not given any information but then get told off (often publicly) for not doing things I didn’t know I needed to do. I’ve been told about a number of evening and weekend events that I am expected to attend, the first time I only got 1 days notice that I needed to be in school until 9pm. SLT speak to me like I’m 5 years old, they’re not interested in hearing how all their initiatives are actually working in the classroom. I am shocked by how low the levels of achievement and behaviour are here but am made to feel like I’m too strict and not understanding enough of the children’s young age. I’ve taught this age group before and I know that this class are far below average. The school is obsessed with iPads and everything being digital, most of my KS1 class can’t hold a pencil correctly and they don’t have any exercise books so how will they ever improve? My classroom is completely lacking in proper resources and I can’t afford to fit it out properly myself. I don’t really get a break during the day, I have four duties a week but I have to eat my lunch and supervise my children in the dining hall every day. The little ones only get 20 minutes in the morning and the whole of lunch time is 40 minutes, including eating time, so many of them don’t get to go outside at all by the time they’ve finished their meal. I haven’t signed a contract yet and my offer letter that I did sign didn’t specify a notice period, nor is it mentioned anywhere in the staff handbook. I’m so tempted to cut and run but I know that’s look terrible on my CV and be unfair on the children and the colleagues that I like. But I really can’t imagine staying here much longer without going mad. I dread coming in in the mornings already and it’s only week 2. My year group’s partners advice to me was ‘keep your head down or you’ll get hauled into HR.’ I know someone got called in ‘for a chat’ the other day because they complained, informally in the staff room, about arranging childcare around short notice events. I’m really not sure what to do for the best.