My school has recently become an academy. We were all expecting this as most staff knew the school needed to change. I was fully supportive of the academy and talked other staff round to the idea. My positivity was rewarded with more responsibility. All looked good. Then the year began. I've got a sats year and the worst behaviour I have ever dealt with which would have been stressful on its own. My first observation my lesson was graded inadequate and I was put on an action plan. I came off it after 2 weeks and further observations but the year has continued the same way. The academy find everything I do inadequate. I then have to jump through further hoops and come out as good the other side. We have weekly book looks, half termly full book scrutinise, 'optional' staff development meetings on top of staff meetings, constant learning walks, constant open lessons for parents. You get the idea. I am so stressed it is affecting my whole life. Today i gathered together all my formal feedback from the year and it was so negative I Just cried. I can't sleep, have lost weight and feel so miserable all the time. No one says anything positive to me and I work so hard. In normal circumstances I would apply elsewhere and hope for a more supportive head but I am currently going through investigations and treatment for recurrent miscarriages and there's a chance i will be pregnant soon. I don't want to arrive somewhere pregnant, although I know im well within my rights to. Part of me feels that under the circumstances the best thing to do would be to take some time out and just concentrate on the fertitily treatment with no stress which I could afford to do. I feel so negative about teaching that I'm not sure if I have another child it's what I want to do but then another part of me knows I couldn't have it much harder than I do right now and I don't feel like I'm really in the state of mind to be making life changing decisions. Any advice would be appreciated!