Hi, I completed my NQT last year and had a really traumatic experience which has led to me losing total confidence in my ability to teach and questioning whether I can ever teach full time again. I was appointed to take over from a long-serving teacher who had left in unpleasant circumstances. Due to her being on and off for around two years, her classes (especially her GCSE class) were demotivated. I was given the job after much deliberation as to whether an NQT should inherit a GCSE class who needed to complete almost two years of study in one year. They appointed me as the HOD felt I seemed confident and highly able and assured me they would offer me all the support they could. One term into the job and everything started falling apart. I was finding the pressure to deliver a brand new GCSE in such a short space of time really overwhelming. Add to the equation that I had, by pure bad luck, been given one of the most badly behaved year 7 form groups, whom I also taught three days a week, and also had to deal with racism (as I was the only non-white member of staff in the school). I had to deal with disruptive behaviour on a daily basis and was offered little support. Soon I began to develop anxiety every morning at the thought of going to work. I became increasingly stressed and when I told my HOD that i was finding things difficult, he seemed understandingbut just said I'd be okay. I wasn't okay though and the support promised on my appointment was never really given. My feelings of stress and exhaustion meant I found it harder to deal with behaviour and generally just found it hard to stay on top of things like planning, marking books and delivering lessons enthusiastically. I started to isolate myself into my classroom because I didn't want anyone to know how unhappy I felt. I eventually confided in a few coleagues and would burst into tears each time. My anxiety was increased by the fact I was worried Id fail the year. I passed the NQT and have since left the school. I've been doing supply but can't see this as a long-term option. I know I need to try and get back into full time teaching but I'm scared that I might not be able to cope with the pressures of full time work. I have lost a lot of confidence in my ability to both teach and to cope with the additional stress associated with teaching. I don't want to feel as unhappy as I did last year because it affected every area of my life which just isn't fair on my loved ones. Has anyone been through a similar experience? Is it worth risking my mental health just to re-ignite a career which I might not be able to cope with?