My Head and a Governor voiced a concern about me after an observation 4 weeks before end of this term. Although I had suffered in my observation due to panic attacks a week prior, and did not 'perform' as I usually would due to anxiety symptoms, they assured me they were not concerned about me as a teacher, but for me. I have had many personal traumas in the last year and a half and have just existed at work trying to be professional. The news came as a shock but was relieved someone had noticed I was not myself. They recommended me having 'some time'l for myself'. I took 2 days off and spoke my Dr, as the Head suggested, who signed me off for 2 weeks. At the request of my Dr I returned on the last day of my leave and she signed me off until the end of term pending my OH assessment on 18th Dec. This totalled my time off as 4 weeks. (In Sept 2014 I had an absence of half a term due to bereavement and returned with more confidence than I now have - I did not intend to have time off this time, but as people who cared about me were concerned with something I couldn't see, I listened to the professionals for my own health). After my appointment, I braved going into school as I was advised it may helped with my progress and out of courtesy to inform them I had been signed off for a further 2 weeks and aimed to return in January 2016. I felt extremely guilty. I was called into the office and grilled by my head for 25 minutes. They asked why I wasn't returning to work, what was wrong with me (being a mental health problem, I couldn't say why at the time), what I was doing whilst off to help myself instead of being at school (moking my reading choice to help me), telling me how terrible my observation lesson was (although this was not the case initially), told me that my Dr only advises and she needs to live in the real world (accused her of signing me off too easily)... among other things that left me feeling overwhelmed. I did not know what to say and my symptoms returned. He couldn't understand why was feeling the way I was. I felt backed into a corner and the deputy remained silent the whole time. I did not expect the meeting. I had no one to support me whilst he raised his voice when I asked him why he had told me now he was concerned with me as a teacher. Initially their reason for their concerns was so vague and I asked him to email me with his concerns so I could reflect, to which he replied he was too busy. I have since spoken in depth with my union and OH therapist who have told me he was bullying me and advised me not to go to my return to work meeting alone. Yet a colleague advised me not involve the union until a last resort as the Head would only involve HR and governors which would only inhibit my progress. Two weeks ago OH deemed me unfit to work and depending on my health, that I would return within 4 weeks. This leaves me with 2 weeks at the start of term for further recovery. If I go back to my Dr, she is sure to sign me off again and I feel obliged to return to work to save my job and fear disappointing my family who tell me if I don't go back now, that I may never. That going back will make me better. OH have advised a 4 week phased return to work which will hopefully lead the return to work meeting. Has anyone else had similar experiences and can advise me? Your time is much appreciated and I apologise for the lengthy post in advance. Hope you all enjoyed your Christmas break.