Ah well that's the rub. Following a tragic event in my personal life I have hit the bottle in a big way. I thought I could carry on but obviously not. In order to hide this problem I made up a series of appointments/sickness episodes to do with a condition that I actually have. Now it has all come crashing down around my ears but at least it has been a wake up call. I have made a gp appopintment to get this sorted out but am worried about fessing up. With the job situation as it is I am terrified which in itself will take its toll. I realise I have been extremely foolish if not dishonest and am trying not to go to the supermarket again.