I completed my NQT year last year and really enjoyed it, despite the stress etc which is to be expected. Since returning in September the school seems to have really changed. Everyone seems to be 'bitching' and there's really high tension throughout the school. I can feel it when I walk through the doors. Everyone is worried about getting 'in trouble' and everyone is striving to be the best, which leads to a horribly over competitive atmosphere and not the team feeling we used to have. I feel so overwhelmed and I'm so fed up, I haven't slept properly all week because I know I'm going back next week, which is completely ridiculous. I feel really sad to say this but I feel burnt out already, I always push myself and, like everyone I work long hours etc and I know I'm a good teacher but I dread going in, in the morning. I come in and shut my door and teach and hope I don't get another pile of paperwork on my desk. I desperately want my life back and I want to stop feeling so anxious and worried but I know the only solution for that is to leave, trying to 'coast' etc is just not for me. I just really need some honest advice please. My family have told me to leave as 'life is short' but they don't understand the guilt that comes with that. Please help!