I found out I was pregnant very early on, I was 4w 1d. After a couple of days I was being sick all day and at 5 weeks was admitted to hospital with dehydration and was diagnosed with hyperemesis gravidarum. I'm now 17 weeks and due to return to work tomorrow, I am terrified. During my time signed off, I've been admitted to hospital twice and have been on 3 different combinations of anti sickness meds. These are working quite well now, I haven't been sick for a couple of weeks now but I do still feel sick. The side effects of the meds is that they make me drowsy and dizzy but it's an improvement from being sick all day every day! I had a telephone appt with occ health while I was off (I was unable to attend in person as I was so ill and unable to drive) and they deemed me unfit for work and recommended when I did feel ready to go back that I went back on a phased return. I went in on Friday (still school hols) and caught up with the head. He said he would sort out a phased return on Wednesday in a sickness absence review meeting with some HR bloke from the LA. I explained that Monday was a full teaching day for me, Tuesday is our long day (we have CPD until 4.15) and the meeting isn't until Wednesday afternoon. He said he expected me back on Monday following normal timetable. I said I didn't know if I would physically be able to do it, between Monday morning and Wednesday afternoon I have 1 non contact period. I'm so scared about going back, pushing myself too hard, relapsing into major sickness again and needing more time off so I'll be letting my dept and the year 11s down. My dad works in industry and he can't believe they're getting me back working normally without some sort of a rehab plan in place. The hyperemesis is, I think, improving now but my pregnancy has been classified high risk due to all the complications I had in my last pregnancy (high bp, severe SPD, carpal tunnel syndrome, suspected pre-eclampsia, bleeding followed by a traumatic delivery). I've been warned that it's likely I'll get SPD again, I ended up on crutches last time...that was on the days I could walk, and my blood pressure will probably end up high too. So far my placenta is lying low but I know there is time for this to correct itself. My SPD has started but at the minute it's manageable, I don't know for how much longer though. This is worrying too because my school are going to be after my blood if I end up being signed off again long term. I know I could take maternity leave at 28 weeks but the reality is I really can't afford to. Sorry about this long rant but I'm just so worried about having to take more sick leave and my phased return not being "phased" enough for me to manage.