Sorry I know I keep posting new threads but I need to get this out. If no one wants to reply please feel free to ignore me. I know that there is something wrong with me when it comes to food although the Dr hasn't diagnosed anything (I don't fit into the bulimia or anarexia criteria and still get my periods). I go to the supermarket regualrly and have cupboards full of food and still buy more, I don't want to eat it and generally don't but when I do I feel sickened with my self and disgusted that I gave in to the urge to eat. Yesterday I had scrambled egg with bacon and cheese on toast and some chips and totally hated myself afterwards, so much so that I took four laxatives to purge my system. I almost wish I could be sick but I have no gag reflex. I hate it when I eat, I hate how I feel about my body, no matter how much weight I lose I never lose enough. I am currently at 52.7 kilos at 5ft7 and think I look fat and have lumps and bumps in all the wrong places. Nothing I wear looks good on me, it all just makes me look worse. I don't understand why I eat when it makes me feel so disgusting, I don't understand why I go and buy food in the supermarket when I don't want to eat it. Yesterday I made a load of cakes and they will likely go in the bin as I won't eat any of them. Can someone please explain this to me before I lose my mind.