Hi, Ill apologise now for the essay. I have applied for 15 or even more jobs (I have lost count) jobs, all a no - I even lied to my parents about a job saying yes, but i declined because I didn't want to work at that school, just to give them some faith in me. I have wanted to be a Primary School teacher all my life, but now there is a huge word in the way NO, the no comes from me, i understand that and it is my lessons which appear to be the problem, but I don't know what to do or how to make my teaching better because no one is giving me a chance. I was rejected from doing my final 10 week placement at home, and now I am being told by every school I go and see that it is a no, I have reflected on each interview trying to make my lesson plans better and my lessons more engaging, but to no avail I feel like I can not handle another rejection, and that I might do something silly... but I dont know what to do after I graduate from university, as I feel like a failure and I dont think my confidence will allow me to temp or to sub or even to get a job as a TA, because if I cant be trusted in a classroom with children then I cant be trusted in a classroom with children. What do I do now? What does one do if they cant become a teacher?