I am increasingly wondering if other NQT's ever feel the way I'm starting to feel more and more frequently. I have been working at a school via an agency on long-term supply for some time now and am feeling increasingly depressed about it. I was not prepared in any way for the sheer amount of work teachers are expected to carry out. I have always thought and said to myself that I will never be one of these teachers who lets work take over their life - I will still go the gym, I will still socialise and I will have a very healthy work-life balance. It just isn't panning out like that. I find keeping up with the planning and marking challenging enough, let alone IEP's, resource making, individual targets for my 30 children, arranging the extra curricular club each week, planning for my LSA etc etc. It's endless and I'm starting to find that I'm becoming a miserable person, particularly at school. Over Easter I really regained a sense of self. I had time to catch up with friends, exercise and read! Now the new term has started I feel like I haven't had a break, even though it's been a 3 day week. I keep telling myself that there are only 11 teaching weeks left but when every day is a struggle, all I can think about is how long 11 weeks is actually going to feel like. My 3 big issues are: a) The sheer volume of work (it is an improving school and the head will not budge on the expectations she expects her staff to be meeting and proving) b) The fact that I have to repeat the same basic instructions every single day - 'keep your hands to yourself', 'cross your legs', 'write the date/your name' - it's driving me a bit loopy and I'm starting to lose my patience with the children for not remembering these basic things. c) Possibly my biggest concern - I'm losing a sense of who I am when I'm at school. Outside of school I am outgoing, friendly and up for anything! I have many hobbies and interests and love company. In school, I have made no friends. I find the other staff to be either too stressed to develop friendships with or simply from another world! I sit in the staffroom in silence, listening to everyone moaning about having no time/the children/their husbands and wonder what I'm even doing there! I don't even know basic things like where exercise books are kept and what the role of my LSA actually is in this school because things were very hurriedly explained to me when I joined and I've been left to it. In normal life I wouldn't hesitate to ask more experienced people questions! But in school I feel like everyone has more than enough on their plates and nobody is interested in any questions I might have, let alone in getting to know me. They are all very, very friendly with each other - they meet up at weekends and know all about each others' family lives - I'm sure that I'm talked about when I'm not there just because I'm so quiet! I've never experienced this before - I feel almost like I shouldn't be there - like I don't have the same rights to sit in the staffroom that they have. The teacher I'm supposed to be working alongside has proven herself to be 2-faced and we have nothing in common at all. I feel worthless and invisible. And I'm starting to fear/believe that this is how working as a teacher is! The workload will never be less, it'll only increase - teachers will always be stressed and there's always more and more to do... Sometimes I feel like giving up before I've really started just to get some genuine 'data-protection' free chit chat going in the workplace again! And being able to leave work at work and having fun in my spare time. I'm in my early 20s and just feel like I'm surely wasting my time fretting about school stuff that I think is pointless in effect!?! Does anyone else feel like this?