Apologies for lack of paragraphs too...I'm on my phone. I'm currently 20 weeks pregnant with my second baby. The pregnancy has been difficult so far and it's showing no signs of getting any easier. The pregnancy was a bit of a surprise in the first place (wasn't planned but very much wanted!) and it's been difficult from the very start. I started being violently sick at 4 weeks and by 5 weeks I was in hospital on a drip because of dehydration. I was diagnosed with hyperemesis gravidarum which I was told would probably clear up by 14-16 weeks, this was around Christmas. By this point I'd had a further hospital admission with dehydration and again needed the drip. I tried to go back to work in January but it was a total fail. I lasted until lunchtime the first day and the second day I didn't even make it to first lesson as I'd thrown up dropping my daughter off at nursery and then in the staffroom toilets. I went home, saw the doctor who signed me off again. Within a fortnight I was admitted to hospital again for 3 days (previous stays were 2 days) to be put on the drip to rehydrate me. Again. I've now been told that as I'm still suffering and I'm 20 weeks it's likely I'll be suffering off and on until the end of the pregnancy. If I'm not being sick, I feel like I'm on the brink of it. Yesterday I actually managed to eat something for breakfast, lunch and dinner which is momentous! However this morning I've already been sick 3 times. I'm taking anti sickness meds but they don't seem to work all the time. They seem to reduce the vomiting for a few weeks but then it gets out of hand and I'm back in hospital on the drip. I am so worried about the impression I'm making on my dept and my school as I've only been there a year and I'm off right at the time where we need to be pushing the gcse kids. I'm so stressed about not being there even though I know I'm physically not well enough to be. I've got meetings with the Head and occupational health all asking me when I'm coming back and I just have no answers which I know puts them in a difficult position with supply etc and it's adding to my guilt. I'm still hoping I'll make a recovery and be back but it looks hopeless. The only real end I can see is giving birth which isn't until 15th June...unless I'm delivered early due to the hyperemesis. I'm seeing the midwife on Wednesday and the consultant the following week but the only treatment left for me to try is steroid treatment. Apparently it's very effective at relieving symptoms but carries risks and I don't want to risk harming my baby. Sorry about the moan, I'm just feeling so drained by constantly feeling/being sick, feeling guilty about work or stressing about the kids' gcse results.