I started my PGCE in September and up until this month it all went fine. My assignments and placement, all went well. Then I started my second placement in a open plan school with 100 min lessons and really poor behaviour and from there it went downhill. I don't know if it is the school or the teaching but I feel generally worn out and had to get time off. It didn't help that my last observation by the uni tutor was a disaster. I was literally crucified and not given a chance to speak. I think it just triggered further the stress that had been building up in me, the lack of sleep and the feeling of constantly being on the edge having to step toe with the school teachers that don't work well together in the first place. My mentor at school is inexperienced with trainee teachers,but I feel I am the only one having to work out things to make it work,the uni won't take my side or even try and listen. Instead they have given me new targets and even more to do to prove I am worthy. I just lost faith and don't know where to start to give an amazing lesson that will wipe the slate clean and let me restore my place for good on the course (I am on 'remediation'). I feel all the paperwork for uni that goes beside the lesson plans and resources for the classes is just a lot of doodle, and it only make sense if you believe in it, ie you have this mysterious inner voice that tells you 'you are a good person,you are doing something amazing here, let's tick this Q standard indicator since you believe in your heart that you have met it'. I have become cynical about it and wonder what the worth it is to put myself through this course - well it is worth a job at the end of it I know,but what kind of a job if it is to be treated like I am at the moment,made to feel incompetent even though I know I work wonders and really hard and only had a bad day that happened to be my observation day. Anyway,I was only going to ask if it was a good idea to leave the course for now and take it again next year? do you know of anyone who had done it?