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Personality or Unprofessionalism?

Discussion in 'Workplace dilemmas' started by ScienceGuy, Nov 18, 2011.

  1. ScienceGuy

    ScienceGuy Occasional commenter

    It may be worth getting one of your lessons videoed - we have an idealised perception of what we are like in the classroom and how we come across. Seeing yourself actually teach, whilst difficult, is almost always a good learning experience.
    I would add that it is unliekly that you are the best teacher you will ever be at the moment - you will carry on learning and improving for the next few years (I have been teaching for 15 years and each year I do things slightly differently and improve on my practice from the year before). Don't allow yourself to fall into the trap where you think you know how to do it all. Ask for advice, ask to see colleagues teach and ask your HoD to come and observe you to get feedback.
     
  2. lidlest

    lidlest New commenter

    plase don't lose your personality, hard work ethic or enthusiasm. So what if you are a tad arrogant and different, I find a lot of new entries to the profession have this and then it is beaten out of them by older teachers who do not like the youthful (not linked to age, experience) nature of new entrants. I pride myself in nurturing newer teachers and rather than feeling jealous or that I have to change them, I utilise that spark! I wish I still had it myself, and will be trying to get it back this year. So what if you think you are a great teacher, thinking you are great often helps you behave great!

    Good luck
     
  3. Thankyou, I think this has all gone down a stream I didn't intend. Gosh I can't even explain how inadequate I feel mainly! I know I can DO things, but not to the best, and I know (and hate) that it's going to take years and years before I get to the point I want to be. It just really gets me down how hard I work and yet still-more mistakes, more errors, more reasons to stick a 2B pencil in my eyeball and forget about it. Love the job and the kids. Whether or not I am loved is irrelevant. Thanks for all your posts :) x
     
  4. wrldtrvlr123

    wrldtrvlr123 Occasional commenter

    Hang in there. You sound like someone I would love to has as my child's teacher (and as a colleague). That being said, you probably do need to work on fitting in a bit better within the faculty, or at least being able to fly a little lower beneath the radar.
    That would be easier if you find someone on staff or within your team who you can be yourself with, while keeping up a more "professional" or "traditional" front/appearance.
    I think most everyone has moments of anxiety or questioning themselves and that is a very human/healthy thing. Loving the kids and the job will carry you through during many low points.
     
  5. This really struck a chord with me (maybe because I feel I'm having a bad week!) but I can completely sympathise with you and if I'm being really honest see a bit of myself in there too. I am less formal (in terms of class atmosphere) than some colleagues, which is not approved of, however I always dress professionally (more so than many colleagues) and feel that I more than pull my weight - I regularly work 50/60 hour weeks (or more) - and yet get the feeling from some that this isn't good enough. I do feel the constant "am I good enough" and worry about how I'm perceived by colleagues, even though I feel I'm doing the best job I can (at the moment, I'm well aware there are plenty of things I can improve, but also have the common sense to realise that I'm not going to be perfect from day 1) and have clear targets of things to develop as I progress my career - for example, I don't give out quite as much homework as some colleagues, something I'm trying to build up, but at the moment I'm trying to keep to a manageable level. My students are nearly all performing at or above target and generally are on track to pass their certificate classes.
    I'm concerned in my current position that there is the possibility that I'm being perceived as arrogant and it's really bothering me - but don't know how to fix it - so again all advice welcomed. I'm currently teaching all top sets in my subject due to being in a faculty set up where everyone has different specialisms, despite the fact I'm only in my second year of teaching. I also have an NQT colleague who is teaching lower sets of my subject specialism.
    Without giving too much information (and again, please do say if it appears that I have) I have been asked to moderate the marking of the NQT in my subject, even though I am very inexperienced really and am not her mentor, as there is no-one else in the school with my subject specialism. Having done this (I thought it would be good for my own development) I'm now seriously concerned about the lack of consistency applied by the NQT along with the apparent lack of any real knowledge of the subject - but when I've tried to raise this and explain my concerns to the NQT and mentor, they don't think there's any issue. Any thoughts? Why ask me (as the alleged subject expert - I did say at the time I wasn't 100% comfortable with this) if they are then going to disregard my opinion? I'm aware that by arguing my corner I probably AM coming across as arrogant, but this really isn't my intention - on the other hand, I grudge spending 7 hours clearing up someone else's mess to then have my feedback ignored, and feel that my colleagues have "pigeon holed" me as this expert - I didn't volunteer! I think perhaps what they really mean is that I'm expert enough to do the extra work, but not enough that I should then offer an opinion! I might add that this is the second set of work I've done this with - after providing extensive feedback the last time, I can't see any improvement in the marking, and some of the answers provided by the students are worrying - if a whole class write the (same) completely wrong answer, where have they got that information from?
    I have taken steps to get my own work moderated (as a result of finding such big discrepancies in the marking I questioned my own judgement) and have been told that my application of the marking scheme is good. So where do I go from here? Without being seen as arrogant or a troublemaker? Sorry for such a long rant and kind of hijacking the OP's thread, but am in a similar-ish position and would really appreciate the help!
     

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