I've recently joined SMT and in the last year have been utterly miserable. I thought I'd feel part of a team, drive things forward, look forward to work. But the complete opposite has happened. I still have large teaching load, (mainly GCSE), whole school responsibilities that completely bore me with little or no strategic leadership in them. I don't feel any comradeship with 90% of the SMT team and therefore feel totally isolated in school. For the past 12 months a day hasn't gone by where I've not thought about returning to mainscale teaching. I understand it comes with its own pressures and that my planning and marking would increase but its the only part of the job that I still enjoy (well, not so much the marking...) So my question is: Will I regret it? I know it'll be a one way road and there will be no going back. I'm in the middle of my career with approx 20 years to go. Do I wait it out and risk becoming more depressed or take a plunge and see?