Thank you. Some good advice. It seems that most people are saying I should speak to a counsellor. I was hoping to be able to crack it on my own, but maybe this is what I need to do. Hubs is very supportive but does get frustrated as he can't understand why I am behaving the way I am sometimes, he doesn't get why I wouldn't just 'want' to be a normal weight. It has recently occurred to him that this is about more than just weight. There are a host of issues including low self esteem and controlling behaviour.