Hi all, First time posting here but I really need advice. This is my probation/NQT year and I am ready to leave. I had a miserable time on my PGDE year. I was bullied in one school by the class teacher I worked with, and in the other school the whole staff were bullied by the HT. My class teacher went off for personal reasons and I was used as a supply teacher and forced to take the class myself for over a week! These negative experiences affected my mental health massively- and tainted my opinion of the job. I decided to power on, despite wanting to drop out of my PGDE, as everyone said it would get better. I am one whole term into the school year and I am miserable. My probation school is amazing- lovely staff and lovely children- so I know I have it so much luckier than many. However, this has only shone a light on the fact the horrible placement schools may have also been masking a real distaste for the career. I blamed everything on being bullied and the stress of bad schools instead of seeing the warning signs the career isnt for me. I am only 23 with a pervious degree in Classics and History which has great transferable skills. I am terrified of quitting mid year but I also do not think I can continue to feel the way I do. I get no joy from the job, cry almost daily, don't sleep, work 60 hour weeks,and have seen my mood and personality change so much I cannot recognise myself. I was known among my friends as being incredibly bubbly, positive and laid back. I am now someone who immediately jumps to negativity and regularly ruins the mood. I am worried I am becoming depressed and feeling trapped in an unsustainable career. I am just not giving it a fair chance? How do I rid myself of the same I feel towards myself for hating this career I once wanted to do more than anything!