Just as some can't understand the desperate need to have a baby, I cannot understand the desire not to. It is the best thing that can happen to anyone. Nothing beats it IMO, and when I had my son it was like I suddenly realised what love was and everything I had felt up till then was a sham. I was never able to have another and now that he is grown up my life feels rather meaningless. I am in my 40s so I have many years of time filling ahead of me. I hope I change and start to feel more positive.