During my induction around 2 years ago, I was getting lesson observation gradings of 'good' or 'good' with 'excellent' features. I don't know what has happened but now I can't seem to get above 'satisfactory' with some 'good' elements. I did have a horrible time at my last school which dented my confidence. I left that school when the fixed-term contract expired because I was being bullied, although I did nothing about this for fear of reprisal. I have since been temping for various schools and since November, I have been employed as a full time teacher at a nice school. I have just had a performance management observation which got a 'satisfactory' grading. I spent such a long time preparing for this, but wondering what has happened. I work and try really hard, but I can't seem to get back up to that 'good' grading. I am a harsh critic of myself and feel that nothing I do is good enough anyway, but it doesn't help that I get paid only the daily temping rate, despite the extra duties and hours and hours of extra work. I'm grateful to have work, but it does eat away at me a little. I suppose I feel a bit cross that I am doing all this extra, inc. lesson obs and parents' evenings for no extra money. Maybe I am just making excuses.