Hi everyone, I see that people on here are wonderfully supportive so thought I would get some advice. I feel like I am a terrible NQT. I started at the beginning of September (secondary) and although my classes (aside from one with huge behaviour issues) seem to be going ok, I feel like I should still be training, I am woefully unprepared for my NQT year in my opinion. I feel as though I am using too much discussion, not enough in books, not enough differentiation, behaviour management is poor, and I am struggling with the admin of it all. I never learnt how to mark year 11 books and although my HOD is very supportive I haven't had chance to learn yet and I feel as though I'm letting down all of my classes and the school. It seems that every time I think I'm on top of something, something new pops up that I haven't considered (such as unscheduled book looks) and I find myself panicking all over again. I'm not sure what I want from this, maybe someone to tell me that they've been there and made it through! I'm desperate to be observed because even if it's terrible it's the not knowing if I'm doing the right things that is the issue for me- I would rather have a horrible observation and know for definite!