Hi all I need some advice. I am an NQT who has been teaching for 6/7 weeks now and every single day all I have thought is 'how long can I keep up this pretense?'. Every single day I feel sick to my stomach about the thought of going back into a school and I beat myself up about absolutely everything. I feel like I am loosing my mind and my health. My school is incredibly supportive, incredibly open and honest and so welcoming I cannot fault it at all. All my friends and family are telling me to 'hang in there, you have just started' and 'it's a career, no more retail!' but honestly all I want to is scream at them, I would love to go back to retail. I feel like my kids don't respect me and I feel deflated and defeated at the moment, I honestly feel like me being there is a detriment to their education. I know that everyone always says 'its normal in your NQT year', but it is normal to question your choice to teach every single day your in school after 6 weeks? I feel trapped and alone, and I need advice! P.S My mentor is really, truly wonderful and supportive and I cannot fault her at all, I actually really get on with her personally aswell, and she gives me streams and streams of advice but all I think is 'I dont actually want to make this work'. What do I do?