Hi all I have posted something similar to this in the new teachers thread a couple of months ago but wanted to share here. I am a 30 year old male NQT of English. I started in my school this Sept after qualifying through school direct in another school but I have hated every minute of it. I keep hearing "it gets better" but my issue is that I have no desire or motivation to do the job at all anymore regardless of whether it gets easier or not. More worrying than that, I am beginning to suffer from depression, to the point where suicidal thoughts are beginning to creep in. I have decided to take tomorrow off and visit my GP about this but I am also looking for another job away from education. My main worry is that I will have to go back to the school until the end of Christmas to honour my contract. It has such a detrimental effect on my mental health that I simply cannot go back. Can anyone offer me any advice as to what my options are? Like I say, I am not interested in returning to education (3 and a half years is quite enough) and I simply want to get a job where I do not feel like this 24/7. Any advice would be much appreciated.