Hello, I am an NQT who has finally, after a year of looking, secured a post. I was ecstatic, after a year out, to be finally teaching my own class (primary). However, since starting in Year 2 in September I just feel deflated and like I am doing a awful job. My class has behaviour issues that I am almost on top of but absolutely wear me out. On top of this I feel I am forever chasing my tail with marking, having to take at least three sets of books home every night. I have 0 confidence in my ability and my self esteem in general is not great but this I feel was made worse by the year on supply prior to this. I just feel that I am failing myself, the school and the children. It has gotten to the point where I go to plan a lesson and I sit and over think ever part of it. I don't want to make it to simple or too complex and just feel I am blagging the year. I have spoken to my mentor who is supportive when they have time, but as they are SLT they are often busy with other things and due to a busy home life leave pretty early each night. They have told me that the stress and feelings are all part of NQT and that I am doing fine but I am just so worried I will fail or I am not good enough. I have even begun to look at other career options within education but don't want to let family or partner down by quitting. I also don't want to let myself down. This is my life long dream! Also to add to this I am now off work currently due to a medical condition caused by a virus. I have had 3 days previous to this due to a horrific sickness bug and I am worried about the impact on my NQT year. I am aware it is 29 days but is this working days or include weekends? Silly question I know. Apologies in advance for this long post but ANY advice or help on how I can improve this feeling or situation would be helpful.