This is a hard message to type. I've been feeling really lost lately. I'm an NQT in a special measure school and I've been struggling since I've started in September. Everybody feels down and a lot of people are leaving. I tried to hold on as long as I could but recently I've been feeling really really down, not caring about my students and my lessons. I feel like I'm definitely not meeting the teacher's standards. The other day, I was getting up for work and I had a big meltdown and panic attack. I could not get to work, I had to call in sick and to ring my doctor. As a result, I've been signed off for 3 weeks (until half term). I don't feel like I can go back to school even after that time off. It's helping not to be there but going back will make everything resurface. Even looking at other teaching jobs makes me anxious and uneasy. I don't know what to do. I feel really stuck because of my financial situation. Partner is a student and he doesn't get a lot of money so my income is what keeps up going. I just feel like teaching has broken me completely. Doing 60-70 hours a week for £1600... not worth it. Working weekends and holidays, bad behaviour, not being respected... I really want to quit and do something else, but what ? and how can i go about it ? Can anybody help and give me some advice. I'm really desperate.