I am an NQT and have been registered with 2 supply agencies since September. I had no idea how difficult I would find supply teaching, and how much I would dread those early morning calls. After giving it a fair trial, I have realised that supply really isn't for me, and I am now (regretfully) starting to ignore the early calls from the agencies. Not only had supply given me anxiety and many sleepless nights, I also feel I have lost the 'spark' and the enthusiasm for teaching which has affected my confidence in such a way which I do not feel I am good at what I do anymore. My motivation to get a full-time teaching position has disappeared, and I feel confused and lost about what I am to do next. I have been thinking about doing some voluntary work in local schools in the hope that I will re-discover the reasons I wanted to teach in the first place, but I can't afford to not have a job where I am earning money. I would really appreciate any advice, as I really do not know what is best for me to do right now. Thank you.