I am working in a school that I love and the kids I love,however I have always felt like a stop-gap-I am a mature NQT and I know when my face doesnt fit!However when the school advertised my job (I am in a year contract) I applied hoping that I would at least get an interview - two days before it was advertised the HT met with and told me that it was going live and he looked forward to my application. Despite feeling aphrehensive as I doubted I would get the job, I applied!Imagine my surprise when the HT calls me at 5.30pm to say that I wouldnt be getting an interview due to my absences being high. As the HOD is absent fairly regularly and Ive had to cover a lot,I could understand from a business point of view. My absences is 8 sick days over two terms-this doesnt include training days or the two days I was off due to my daughters sickness. However it was the following comment that threw me and has had me in a mess: Due to your absences, you could fail your NQT year. ***?!?! No one had expressed that this was a concern (this happened at Easter) well they said I had to be careful with absences but nothing referencing my NQT year!I asked HR and they said that it was a contributing factor suggesting that if absent more than their policy for warning,I could fail. I have contacted my union twice and heard nothing. I asked my NQT mentor to qualify this for me but not had an answer-its been 4 weeks. In the mean time,my subject mentor is wholly negative-they sees me making a mistake and rather than support me there and then,they leave it then uses it as a basis to reprimand me and be very negative!! I am feeling worthless, **** teacher, horrible person and scared. I have had panic attacks on the way and after school though it has never interferred with my teaching, and Im now signed off for 2 weeks.Which terrifies me as I still dont know the answer to my original absence question. Any advice or similar situations would be appreciated.