It's my last week of my second and final placement and Thank goodness it's almost over as I just about made it out alive (no joke). This PGCE year has been the hardest and worst year of my life. I do secondary and mostly in the 6th form yet I still couldn't handle it. I have really struggled throughout this year. My mental health has been at an all time low where I have been very depressed and suicidal at times. I feel like even when I really try my hardest there's no payoff. I didn't really enjoy my first placement but at least I could see that I was making progress and my mentor gave me an outstanding on my report. My second placement I've barely made any progress and it's been terrible. I dont feel I've had even one successful lesson. And on my report its going to say 'sound' progress towards teacher standards which is very poor. I feel like I've gone backwards. Also, I literally have no confidence left and cry all the time and sometimes lock myself in the bathroom between periods to just let out my tears. It's a shame as this is not how I expected this year would go I have very creative ideas for lessons and like coming up with ideas however I can never seem to execute them. Despite all that, I can't even get a job. Every application I've done I've got an interview for. Yet I cannot progress beyond that. I'm really tired and over everything. I don't even know if I want to do my nqt year seeing as I can't get a job and my PGCE has been a disaster. I don't know what my next steps are and feel like this whole year has been a waste of time especially if I don't even do the nqt year. Can anyone offer any advice on what I can do? Or just any comments would be appreciated.