I'm trying in this forum and in pregnancy, and health and wellbeing. I just wondered if there was anyone out there in the same situation as me. I have been trying to get pregnant for 6 years, have been diagnosed with 'unexplained infertility' (all tests fine, all OH's test's fine). We have had 3 IVF attempts, all negative results. We don't want to try again as we'd have to find the money this time (previous 3 attempts on NHS), and it seems like a lot of money for very little hope. I've been through the roller coaster of emotions, and sickening jealousy (and, quite frankly, hatred (ashamedly so) of every 'bump' I see) and so I now more or less feel 'at peace' with whatever happens in the future (e.g. children or not, I love my OH to bits and we have a lovely life together). I just wanted someone to talk to (just online) who could perhaps identify with me. I don't feel "childless" in a desperately sad way, and often love the freedom of NOT having children. But there are times when it does suddenly get to me. I suppose I don't really feel like I fit anywhere. I'm not "childless by choice", or, as I said, "childless" and desperately sad, so I don't feel like I fit in either of those 'forum' categories. I'm not currently receiving fertility treatment, so again, don't fit there. I suppose 'trying to conceive' might be the nearest, as there's always the chance it could happen, although we're not doing the whole fertility monitoring/ovulation tracking etc (been there, done that!!) So, I'd love to hear from anyone similar, but if there's no-one similar, then thanks for reading anyway! PS This might sound like a sad post, but I'm genuinely happy in life, and I love my job. Just sometimes feel there's a bit missing? My friends are either single and so don't have a long-term secure relationship in common with me, or they have kids, so we don't have that in common. Anyway, thanks. I might just feel better for writing it down!