I'm a term and a half into my NQT year and I've reached a terrible stage. I've lost the urge to do my work, I live school day by day and each day I get through is another day done. The worse thing is, It feels like I don't care. I spent all hours worrying about my kids, what I needed to get done, making sure I was doing as well as I could, now I barely want to get out of bed. I lie in bed on a morning and think of ways I can get out of school today. However, I'm a walking contradiction as I will cry over school because I do care.l My emotions are all over the place. I've already accepted within myself that I'm quitting at the end of the year. I'm aware of the current climate, but I need an escape. This is not the career for me. I just need some motivation to get through this next term and half or something, because I would hate to look back and think I've let my class down.