I am new to being a deputy at a big primary. I have no teaching responsibility. Before this I was AHT with half a class responsibility. I found it hard work at first but feel that I've 'cracked it' now in that I have a handle on what I'm doing and I think I'm doing a good job - feedback from staff and my HT is very good. But my heart is just not in it. The hours are longer than I imagined and I have no life outside of being at school anymore - in the evenings I arrive home late, cook, eat and go to bed. At the weekends I have to make sure I don't get too tired by staying up late / driving too much etc. as I worry I won't be able to cope with the week if I do. I don't take work home, I never did as a teacher and I don't now, but I do work very long hours and although I'm not physically working at home my mind is! I miss the classroom teaching enormously and although I know I'm helping the teachers in the school I miss being with the children. I know my HT would be horribly disappointed (possibly angry) if I told her how I was feeling and I suspect she'd write me off. If I apply for other jobs I will feel terribly and am worried that no school would want me as I'd be taking step 'backwards' which might be viewed with suspicion. I am dreadfully unhappy though. I'm exhausted and the thought of keeping doing this has ruined my half term. Has anyone else been in the same boat and made it work / moved on?