I'm not sure if anyone can offer me any valuable advice on this one, but a little support would be lovely. I've had a nightmare year. I started to have bad panick attacks in September (mainly due to how the head has treated me over the past few years) so took some time off, being signed off til Christmas. Throughout the time I was off I was being phoned regularly by both the head and my head of faculty asking me work related questions. Then on my return to work in January (I was still having panick attacks at this point) I was subjected to a string of meetings in which I was made to feel incredibly guilty about leaving the other music teacher (an NQT) on her own, and accused of not doing my job properly before I went off as they could not find any of the GCSE coursework or tracking. I later found out that they hadn't actually looked for it. Since then I've had regular meetings with the head, about the latest thing she think's I've done wrong, all of which have been unfounded accusations. My attendance up until Easter was also very eratic still as my panick attacks were still quite severe. Last friday I was handed a letter stating that I was to be officially investigated as compared to the rest of the school, my end of KS3 levels were high. I tried to explain that there were reasons for this, to which the response was 'well you can say all of this in the meeting'. The facts are that year 9 have only had one formal assessment this year due to the amount of time I've had off. That assessment was the end of KS3 which was purposfully designed to try and boost pupils up to their target levels (which are ridiculously high). At the time I decided that using those levels, although not amazingly accurate, would be the fairest thing to do rather than guess an entire year group's levels. As far as I am aware, no concerns have ever been raised about my ability to level work (I am an M6 teacher). To add insult to injury I now have to have a meeting with the deputy head and someone from HR, but due to me not being on the ball during my illness my union membership had lapsed meaning that although I reinstated it I cannot have any representation or even face to face advice on the matter. I'm completely panicking. I'm a good teacher, was observed on Friday and got a 2, but it seems like there's a personal vendetta against me (the head is a well known bully) and without union help I won't be able to fight back.