Similar here to you CelticQ although I hadn't lost my father but gained two sets of step parents - although the second a lot later. Unfortunately while I love my Mum, that side of my family are very self-centred, b.*chy and two-faced. Also in my 30's but I can't discuss anything personal without knowing it goes throughout my family within the week. My trust was lost in my teens when seeing things first hand against an older sister.